28 September 2006

Here Is Our King


Ever feel like the weight of the world is pressing down on you so hard that it all just seems too complicated? Or like no matter how hard you try to do good, there are just too many people against you, and the ones who are on your side appear to be rather apathetic? Or maybe you've tried something a number of different ways, but none seem to be catching? And the hardest part is knowing that deep down in your own heart, you're truly seeking to fulfill God's call on your life -- to expose this beautiful diamond that's been placed in your heart -- but all your actions seem to be for naught.

This happened to me on Sunday afternoon. I was defeated. I was dreading entering my place of service to the Lord. Felt like it was time to fold it up and just become another spectator in the greater scheme of His body. There was a sadness tracing through my inner-most soul that I can't even begin to explain.

And then it hit me...

Here is our king, here is our love
Here is our God Who’s come
To bring us back to him
He is the one, he is Jesus, Jesus

The rest of the song continued to play, but all I could hear were these words. All I was aware of was Jesus singing those words to me over and over. I was overcome with emotion. At that moment, I knew beyond all human doubt that Jesus exists, and that His Spirit speaks to us. And I can't explain it, or teach it, or even paint it, I JUST KNOW IT. So I picked my head up and walked into my place of corporate worship with a renewed outlook -- not because of anything I did, but because of what the Spirit had spoken into my soul just an hour earlier.

And this is the thing -- He didn't give me any answers to my questions, or a three-year plan for our place of worship, but He gave me something much more valuable -- HIMSELF.

Seek ye first...

The chorus mentioned above is from the song Here Is Our King [follow link to MP3], by the David Crowder Band.

5 comments:

miller said...

The LORD is with you when you are with him. If you seek him, he will be found by you, but if you forsake him, he will forsake you.

2 Chronicles 15:2

Jean said...

" And the hardest part is knowing that deep down in your own heart, you're truly seeking to fulfill God's call on your life -- to expose this beautiful diamond that's been placed in your heart"

Troy, I am so thankful for your heart and your desire to fulfill God's call on your life. It humbles me to serve and seek first His Kingdom with you.

troy. said...

Jean -- if you only knew how much of Him I see reflected in you. Don't ever give into the lies of the Beast.

Becky said...

It takes an enormous amount of pressure to make a diamond--so I'm told by the resident expert.
"pressed but not crushed..."

Anonymous said...

REMEMBER WE ARE TO LIVE BY FAITH NOT EMOTIONS. OUR EMOTIONS WILL MESS WITH US. KEEP THE FAITH